Responsibility

Responsibility rests heavily on my shoulders where my extended family is concerned. That being my parents and my siblings. Being the eldest, being the only one with a stable job, being the only sane sibling (I think!), being the only one that they can ridiculously and shamelessly ask for anything from. ANYTHING! They know that I love them so much I will ultimately back down and give it to them. I guess this is the reason why I was chosen by GOD to be in this position. To have something to give. To have the wisdom to understand family dynamics ... whatever that means :)

Today, my brother struck a motorcycle while driving to work and the driver needs operation. This is the kind of emergency I wanted to save up for. I know they have no one else to depend on but me. I always hear "God will provide". I also hear "God helps those who help themselves." Am I helping my family too much that they do not work hard anymore to deserve the help from God? *Sigh* I sometimes think I am just rationalizing my thoughts on NOT helping anymore. But like I said, I will back down ... Help will be on its way.